Reflection

"You keep telling yourself that maybe one day the person you love will change. that maybe one day they'll finally see what you see, feel what you feel and regret all the wrong they've done to you. you keep telling yourself it'll be okay - that giving them time will make them grow and appreciate you for who you are. you keep telling yourself that maybe one day everything will change for the best, and that the both of you will finally come to terms and be happy. you keep telling yourself this and that but this is where it hurts, where it stings a little harder because you've been telling yourself this for years and deep down inside you know that at some point you're going to have to come to the realization that some people aren't meant to be yours. no matter how much history you have. no matter how hard you try, and how many nights you've shared beneath the moon. because at some point... you're going to find yourself wanting more, wanting better. that's just human nature and you can only tolerate so much until you finally snap out of it. and it could happen at anytime. a week from now, a month or even a year later. and when that day comes, you will tell yourself how important your past was. you will tell yourself how big of a role the people who've hurt you had. and maybe you'll even thank them. maybe you'll even wonder how different your life could have been without them. and you will accept everything, both bad and good, and forgive them and forgive yourself as well. you will move on. you will know what you deserve. and you will finally open those beautiful eyes of yours and see for the very first time. change will be brewing over the horizon and everyone who has ever hurt you will appear before you and you will quietly whisper. "I should have never fought so hard for those who never loved me and I should have given myself the time I needed to heal. nonetheless, I want to thank you for hurting me the way you did. I'm a better person now and I could have not done it without you."